I hope all my fellow Steve and Kayla fans realize how much I’m suffering on their behalf.
I am currently watching the Steve and Kayla clips where he breaks up with her for the sake of Jack/Billy (oops, hope I’m not giving anything away!). I am racing through them on the theory that it’s better to swallow a bitter pill quickly.
I had such traumatic memories of this storyline that when I watched all the OLAB clips (see link in the sidebar) a year ago, I skipped right from the scenes in the stopped elevator—you Steve and Kayla fans know the ones I mean!—to the Jack and Kayla wedding. I just couldn’t stomach watching it again. And all this past summer as I was watching the on the run clips I dreaded what was coming next.
I am an avowed fan of Steve and Kayla angst. But after I had labored through the noncommittal “I’m not avoiding you” hospital lounge scene, the “shore leave” speech and hookup, the morning after breakup, and the scene where Steve asks for the necklace back, I got to his perjury at the Ed Daniels trial (when he says about Kayla, “I knew she would believe any line I fed her”) and my heart nearly failed me. I didn’t remember clearly how long it took for Kayla to marry Jack, but I knew it wasn’t the work of a day. I wasn’t sure how long I could continue to watch this.
But things are looking up. I still hate nuJack with a burning passion, Jo is quickly losing all favor with me, it takes all of Stephen Nichols’ skill to make me feel any sympathy for Steve, and Kayla’s confusion and pain are still breaking my heart. But Jack’s level of delusion in the face of Kayla’s obvious misery is actually becoming amusing to me. And I have to admit it was satisfying to see Roman punch Steve in the face—which he richly deserved, since he was singing “The Thrill is Gone” about Kayla at the time. Also, the Ed Daniels undercover operation is, surprisingly, a hoot. Steve and Shane, who knew they could be so much fun? And Steve and Gabrielle have a surprising amount of bantery chemistry (not romantic, please relax).
And Stephen Nichols and Mary Beth Evans are knocking it out of the park. There is a little nothing scene between them soon after Kayla has told Steve about Jack’s proposal (which she is still considering). They run into each other accidentally in the park, and this is the dialogue they exchange:
Steve: Have you given Jack your answer yet?
Kayla: I was just going over to see him.
Steve: Tell Jack I said hi.
Nothing special, right? But Mary Beth Evans does a wonderful job conveying, as Kayla says “I was just going over to see him,” a wild, eager hope that Steve is about to tell her to refuse the proposal. She then reads on his face that he is not, and she turns away, deflated. So when Steve calls her back, she looks only annoyed that he’s detaining her. Then, when she’s not looking at him, we can see him struggling with himself not to try and stop her. And when he gets hold of himself, and says only “Tell Jack I said hi,” Mary Beth makes a very slight dismissive, disgusted sound and walks away. She seems just as disgusted with herself (for having that moment of hope) as she is with him.
So I’m enjoying the clips much more than I thought I would. I just have to remember this feeling when I get to the leadup to the wedding. ::clutches head, starts rocking back and forth::